neveranormallife

[lonelynomore]

Unspoken

There it is again Lord,
My stubborn streak.
I know the verse says, “I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me”
But Lord, I’m young, healthy, strong, and independent. I don’t need your help Lord.

But why, when things started to get difficult, did I suddenly give up?
Father, you’re supposed to have all the answers.
Yet, you refuse to tell them to me.
Even though I desperately need it.

I’m sorry Father,
I just wish I wasn’t so stubborn all the time,
I know you made me this way and that I should be happy about it but I just can’t.
I wish in a way, that I didn’t exist.

You are always there and I know that
But some times I simply forget.
Whenever I need you you’re always there,
I don’t even have to ask, you’re just there.

Last night when I tried to take my life,
You were there,
You held my hand and gently forced my fingers to drop the knife,
And the box of medicine that would surely kill,
You were there and hid them from my mind and sight.


Though I am lonely and ignored by the many teens at church,
And I sit along the wall by myself,
You are there, sitting right next to me.
For I have you and I will NEVER be alone!

I feel as thought I haven’t a single talent,
But you reminded me,
“I gave you your voice.” You said,
“I gave you the ability to write beautifully”

“Why do you ignore me”
You said, “As if I don’t exist?”
I created you with no mistakes,
You are a lamb of my flock and I, the Shepard. Yet, this means nothing to you.
You say you don’t need my help, but you give up as soon as life gets rough.”

But Father, I do need your help,
I was just being stubborn and selfish,
Please Father, help me? I need you in my life.
I need you to guide me through life’s horrible trials because I CANNOT do it alone.

“I am here child.” You said.
“And I will help you. I have tried always but you wouldn’t let me.
I will always be here when you need me. NO MATTER WHAT!

Father, I thank you with my entire life for your son who died upon Calvary.
Thank you for not giving up on me. My life was horrible and is still full of flaws.
But with your help and guidance, I will be able to change.
Without you, I would be dead.

I love you father with all of my heart.
I will strive to please you as long as I live.
I will be your humble servant for all my days.
I am yours, to mold and design as you see fit.

Use me, when no one else is willing to go.
Send me on the hardest of missions.
Wherever you need me, I will go.
For with you, ALL THINGS are possible.

Use me as a light in a world of darkness,
I will shine bright,
For you Lord and you only.
Make me yours Lord, forever and always yours.

By,

Rachel C. Werth
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God will make a way, when there seems to be no way.
Give God the Glory!

My Mother has 3 diff chronic illnesses. And many other illnesses. Trying to Cope.

Phil. 4:13- I can do all things through Christ who strenegthens me.